CASEY BOY 1996-2009
June 5, 2009 - No Responses
Casey came to us in 1996, after the death of our poodle Chi-Chi, as a companion for Brandy our black Labrador-Chow mix. The first year was tough as he was apparently dumped off at the pound for being a notorious chewer and damager for the previous owners. I’d come home from work and have to replace ten feet of my underground sprinkler system and replace a wheelbarrow full of dirt back to it’s original location. After several repair lawn jobs and a new pair of Nike Athletic shoes we finally managed to get him corrected.
Casey had epileptic seizures which may have been another reason for his abandonment and a concern as the pound said he was mistreated. Well Tina and I were used to taking care of Chi-Chi’s diabetes and insulin shots we decided to cure him without the use of drugs and instead with lots of head massages and keeping him from chewing the plants that could trigger these seizures. Though he had them periodically, they were manageable. Keeping him off the stairs while seizing was a challenge.
No stranger ever failed to remark at Casey beautiful red coat. As a redbone hound and shepard mix he was quite handsome. The ‘Big Boy’ was all about ‘Chow time.’ In order to keep him satisfied we had to put him on adult formula early to keep his weight down yet, provide him the tonnage he demanded. Friendly was an understatement to describe the hound the children called Clifford the Big Red Dog. All the neighbors had to acknowledge his before they left for work as Casey would stand by their car doors until they gave him a little scratch. We lived on a Cul de Sac, so he made the circle everyday. If they had their garage doors open, Casey would enter looking for food and remain until I or Tina went to retrieve him. Thank God we had good neighbors.
Tina’s drug problems were no secret to my friends, family and neighbors. When I was at work and she drove to bad neighborhoods to buy drugs, she took Casey with her. The drug dealers would try to hit her or steal from her until Casey was riding shotgun. I have no doubt I was spared a few hospital trips or a possible funeral to arrange, thanks to my Big Boy Casey. He knew his responsibilities. Tina left for good after 911. I had lost my job due to company closure and she had run through the bank accounts. That was hard on Casey so I had to extend myself extra hard to keep his spirits up. Time finally healed his wounds and the three of us spent the next eights years alone.
In 2006, I sold the house in South Florida and moved to the mountains in North Carolina. The heat and humidity in Florida was taking their toll on the dogs and I was ready for another change. Casey and Brandy thrived here for three years.
On Friday, May 15, Casey took a fall down the stairs. He did not want to walk with me and Brandy that day. I finished the walk and returned to find him sitting under a tree in the back yard where he had never laid before. I watched him for awhile and he did not take his eyes off me for the entire time I watched him. He lumbered back into the house later and I helped him onto the couch as I knew he would not likely make it upstairs that night to sleep in his usual spot.
I woke suddenly from a sound sleep because someone shouted for me to go downstairs. I came down to find my boy had gotten off the couch and was laying between the couch and coffee table. He was panting, turning his head left and right. I laid beside him and grabbed his head to rub it. He immediately laid over on his side and freely urinated as his system and heart were giving out and within a few moments he took his final breaths while I whispered in his ear that I loved him very much.
I thanked God for waking me up and telling me to go down there to say goodbye as I believed Casey was waiting for me and was unable to call to me. I cried from 1:00 Am to 4:00 am until I was exhausted. I realized why Casey had gone to that spot to lay down the previous day. It was his choice for where he wanted to pass.
I buried him Saturday breaking through the hard clay and rock ground, chopping through some roots from the tree and was finally able to create a hole large enough to handle his beautiful big form. I think about the loss of friends and family and can say for certain this was as big a loss for me as any I have ever had. Likely living alone for eight years and spending my time with them added to the grief I suffered. Casey was my ‘big boy’ and I owe him as much as anyone else who I have ever loved or has loved me.
"...we are all diminished when the least of us passes from amongst our ranks."
ReplyDeleteAnd maybe the whole idea of "least" or "most" needs to be questioned anyway. Whatever... you have lost a good friend.
He understood that... in his "dog" way... as did you... in your "monkey" way. But with our critter brethren... i never cease to marvel at their most noble hearts. Maybe that's just "projection," I dunno.
Clearly, you have lost a friend, brother. My deepest sympathy. We get so few of them in this world.
Your "big boy" will be a part of you forever. All dogs go to heaven... for a reason.
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Puddy Dunne, I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your pal, your friend Casey Boy.
ReplyDeleteI have three Boston terriers and each day look at them not just as dogs, but as an extension of my being. Playing toys each morning and evening with them. You know the routine.
Being one with your dogs is such an incredible feeling.
Take good care,
Munich
"Oh Casey Boy..."
ReplyDeleteThere are many here Patrick who know all too well that deep, deep ache when we lose a friend like Casey. It's deep cuz they touch a part of us that most humans can't. I'm glad you had him in your life and he was a lucky, lucky dog to be loved so much.
p.s. i had a middle of the night awakening when my cat was dying. i sat straight up and asked where he was. have no idea why, never did that before and i started searching frantically in the dark and found him breathing shallowly on the concrete floor of the porch. we were able to save him that night, but he never quite overcame it. i believe in your case and mine there was definitely something other than coincidence at work.
We're all the same. I see no distinction between us and most species. Pets can be extended family, sometimes the only family, and the least judgmental and most supportive. Unconditional love. Too bad the old testament has tainted humanity with the line of bs on the very first page "...then god created all the creatures, and gave man dominion over them." It's the biggest line of crock propaganda ever conceived. Nothing but an excuse to rape and pillage the planet because it's our "god given" right! Ok, let's see the signed document. Maybe moses or one of his minions got it. Meanwhile, Cap'n Puddy, sorry you've lost a friend. I've grieved more for some pets than other lost friends. They can be great buddies as well as being tuned into other realities we don't pick up with our limited sensual array.
ReplyDeletePatrick your story made me cry. Your big boy was beautiful. Not only his gorgeous redcoat but those sweet, warm eyes.
ReplyDeleteYou can take comfort in knowing that he called you to him, not only that night that you found him lying on the floor when you heard the call to say goodbye, but the day you rescued him from the pound. You gave him new life, a good life, filled with love and comfort.
I know what it is to lose such a friend. When my 15 year old samoyed (sasha) passed almost four years ago, I cried for days. I still miss her. I know she'll be waiting for me when I cross over someday as I know your "big boy Casey" will be there waiting for you to rub his head .
Thanks one and all. Your wonderful comments reinforce why I sought you and COTO out. Indeed the story was to look for some comfort and that I appreciate very much.
ReplyDeleteIt also was to put a light on the remarkable experience of being shouted at to awaken from the sleep. As oldschoolanarch can attest to, there are likely millions of stories about the loss of anyone close and some mysterious phenomenon that occurs that can not be explained.
We all share different perspectives on spirituality here but think we all share the love and respect for all things created.
It continues to be my extreme pleasure to think of us as family. I have little use for hope, but my faith is one of my most valued treasures and you all reinforce it everyday for me with your words. here.
Patrick;
ReplyDeleteI am terribly sorry for your loss. Three years ago, a blue pit/ Rottie stumbled into my life as a little pup. His name is Church. He's sitting on the bed behind me as I type. He wants to go out back and chase the squirrels up the tree. Like always.
I was a cat owner for most of my adult life, I thought it was the same thing as having a dog. I was wrong. I love my cats, I still have three (almost 4 when I found a feral kitten in my engine last week), but the bond between my cats and I is a little different. Not better, not worse, just different.
Sounds like you gave Casey a wonderful life. Rescued him from the pound, moved him out to the mountain with other dogs and trees to play and adventure in. And of course, you were always there. Even in the end.
What you gave Casey is what every single worker at the pound secretly hopes for, with each new dog that comes in there.
Especially in times like these WL, we see the animals, elderly and children suffer the most. I move all my charitiable expenditures to the local pound here and the community.
ReplyDeleteMaybe some day we all post pics of our pals. Thanks for the words.
Patrick, thank you for sharing your loss with us....
ReplyDeleteit is so poignient, wrenching and beautiful. I just got my avatar up yesterday, and chose my dog,
Dindi as she has every right to represent me, having been abandoned and arrived on my doorstep and chose me to be her human. I guess she knew I would love and cherish her as a dear friend. One cannot help but occasionally acknowledge the pain that is inevitably in store for us down the line in these relationships as we usually outlive them. But it makes every day more precious and their enthusiasm and character even more endearing.
Dog is my co-pilot!
Alooooooha!
A perfect match litnup. Thanks for the words. Dindi represents the best medicine for what ails many of us, huh?
ReplyDeleteA love unconditional and a window from which the creator can keep his eye on us all. Dindi is a cutie!
patrick
ReplyDeleteI will add my fullest condolences. Along with the comment on how pounds wish for people like you. You gave Casey Boy the very best life and love, right to the end.
I am also a dog person, always have been. My son now has one, Snoopy who is a beagle rescued from the pound.
On your ideas of supernatural experiences, I could not agree more. hell, I had one when my mother passed. She gave me a gift that I carry inn my heart right after she left us. As an aside, it was my mother who taught me my politics.
She was one of us. A seeker of truth, willing to question authority and sticking up for the little guy. Ma was COTO all the way.
Thoughts and prayers to Casey Boy and Ma.
Thanks Michael, the comments are getting better and better for me. We are connecting here on another level other than our traditional COTO views and it is very powerful for me.
ReplyDeleteIn my darkest hours during the nightmare of my marriage, I was always provided with something like Casey Boy, to get my spiritual batteries recharged.
I am sorry for your greif at your mother's passing, but most happy and intrigued about THE GIFT.
Best regards to your crew and Snoopy too!
Patrick and All,
ReplyDeleteOk, you all are about to hear something that I only share with a very select group of people. Of course you all are family, so here goes.
My mother was born and raised in Coalisland, Co Tyrone. A very small and very Catholic town in rural northern Ireland.
Now Ma was/is a COTO member, to the hilt. She was lying, near death from ovarian cancer. The local priest stopped by, to grant her the Last Absolution. She told my aunt to tell him "Thank you but no, go away." This is a small rural town in Ireland mind you. My mother and I often had talks of the spiritual. She told me that she was "No heathen, I just do not buy the Mother Church line."
That was Ma.
So anyway, long story short. I had sat with Ma, on Christmas Eve along with my cousin Theresa.
At 8 am, after sitting up singing Christmas carols all night I told Ma that I was leaving to sleep at my Aunt Bridie's. That if she needed to leave before I came back that it was OK. She was unconscious by this time
Two hours later I was wakened at Aunt Bridie's. She was gone.
I ran over and ran up to her room. Alone, no one else was there. In the Irish tradition all the mirrors were covered (so that the bad faeries could not enter her room)
The calm and serenity of that room was overpowering. I cried and talked to her for a minute.
Then it happened.
As God is my witness, a bright overpowerinng light entered the room. Not a light you can see with your eyes but feel and with your soul eyes. It was more real than anything I have ever experienced.
At that moment, Ma put a piece of the overpowering feelings of love and joy that she was feeling deep into my heart. It was her last Christmas present to me. It is there till this day.
Thanks Ma and thank you Casey Boy. For looking out for our friend Patrick.
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OK all, you can shed a few little tears at this story. As God is my witness, this is true. Perhaps I could share my AA story along with it some day. It is very similar although not as powerful, obviously.
Dia Duith Agus Slan Go Foil
Mo Chairde Nua
Go Raibh Maith Agat
Saoirse Anois
May the Creator Bless You and Good Luck Be With You
My New Allies (Friends, Comrades)
My Thanks Travel With You
Freedom Now
Thanks for exposing and sharing such personal experience. You do not have to sell me on the light. I saw it well at 16 when I had drowned in the inlet of Boynton Beach Florida. A calmness and peace never before to date have I experienced.
ReplyDeleteIt is unfortunate many have not had the light or other message in the ways we have had. Since that time I have not lived but very few minutes in fear. Thanks Michael.
Michael.. that is a lovely story.. thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI love you guys !
Patrick I was very moved to read your story of Casey Boy and the evidence of your trust in this group. It is pretty amazing how quickly we have become more than link-traders and commenters!
ReplyDeleteWe're dog and cat people too so know well the grief you have.
More later- they just came to shut off the power for awhile!
Back again. It's hard to overstate the meaningful relationship that can exist between people and animals. Non verbal communication was certainly the first kind, and still may be the most reliable. I noticed expecially when my son began to talk, something innocent was lost. Language brings the ability to lie. So our bonds with animals, being lie-less, are often the most true.
ReplyDeleteI hope in your efforts with the local shelter you find another friend soon. We lost a special cat Kiko recently, she was almost 18 and had been born in this house. We found ourselves looking and reaching for her for days. I still sometimes am tentative about stretching out my legs in bed so as not to disturb her, tho she's no longer there.
Seems Casey was long-lived too. Sounds like he had a great life.
We here recognize that we all share a common bond - we're animals. And as animals we think, feel, and act in many common ways. This idea that humans are something special is nonsense. I lost one of my best friends of ten years who just happened to be a cat... Scooter. Now, ten years down the line, I still get teary eyed when I think of her. She was one of the most intelligent creatures I had ever known. Not only smart, but she had a great sense of humor, was very social, talkative, curious, and always testing limits. And tenacious as hell. One little black furry bundle of joy! I could write a book about her. She taught me so much - esp to be here now. Her favorite game was playing hide and seek after sunset. She always won.
ReplyDeletePatrick, I also cried, My sincere condolences for Casey Boys loss.
ReplyDeleteLost a good mate Riley, in Dec nearly 13, and he saw me through atime I was told I was dying. I lived for my dogs, and my garden, loosing him was a chunk of life gone . I really do feel for your loss, I wish I wasnt so far away, I have 4 pups who need an owner like you:-)
I just look forward to the day I get to where all my family is, I have a few gone ahead.
My mum came back the night after she died and told me to "wake up" took me a few short weeks to know it was,nt just the standard wakeup she meant..and I moved out of a lousy marriage , and moved to a pack as family. haven't looked back since!
They are people in fur, and I trust them well before any human.
Again my sympathy, be grateful for the love Casey and you shared, and hold it close.
Laurel
That's so true Laudyms. Words, these days seem to be mostly of the wasted variety. Politicians, lawyers, soothsayers and salesmen have turned, twisted and mangled the language into a PC scrap heap.
ReplyDeleteKiko, Casey and the rest of our best friends on this thread must have been thoroughly entertained by much of our linguistic acrobatics when all they were needing was a simple stroking. What do they posess that we never were able to identify?
Thanks for Kiko.
Scooter in Hawaii. For a cat, that's just about heaven, Cinderfella? My cats have always been 'dog like' This personality we see when we spend a large amount of time interacting and nurturing.
ReplyDeleteMy cat goes on the walks with me and the neighbors dogs. The dogs treat him as an equal. Scooter appeared to be a cut above in his class. She was the teacher. That's a humbling statement, and animals that teach us humility are a good thing.
I'm tired of corrupt monkeys who think they are the teachers and authority. Bless little Scooter, she never lied. Thanks C.
For a Dog Whisperer OZ, I can read so much into your pic of Riley. What a sensitive look on his face. I wish I could take those pups, but I am feeding about 7 neighbors dogs and it's almost like they are mine.
ReplyDeleteYou are well now? Your story is the model for breaking out of the matrix and starting over the art of "living" Animals, Garden, Music, Poetry and love are a full menu.
Thanks for Riley, Amicus. Thanks for your story.
Hi again, well, I am as well as I am likely to get. Beware of cat scratches people, I got cat fur in a joint, worked its way in from a cat I groomed..million to one, lucky me:-(
ReplyDeletegave me leukemia and galloping RA as an after effect. Being the Alpha Bitch I had more to do than believe the docs, and the experience woke me up to big Pharmas nasties in a very personal way, then I realised that ALL our home and personal items were as dodgy, then the food issues...and then I realised I had been living in a totally unreal world, misplaced trust, with no basis for it, rocked my socks off!
So although I had gone rural, clean n green, I had no way gone far enough! Now I spend all day every day where possible with the hounds and do what I can to save local soils, wise up the farmers, and stir the possum online:-) The luxury of watching the sunsets, seeing the blossoms and the birds, makes up a million times over for lack of income, and what some folks call necessities:-)
Happiness is a warm puppy, just now I have 10, down from 15, my cup runneth over, sadly so is the flooring:-) occupational hazard.
skii dogs--we ski with dogs all winter- two apiece--skiijouring they call it --good winter fun --they love to pull--just bring out the harnesses and skis-they go nuts-- drop the tail gate and its a mad dash to see who is in first---they love to earn their keep -so i relate to all--so smart they are when in pack mode--so loving--i have lost many favorites --and not ashamed to say my wife and i cry still to this day when we bring out the pics or video of dogs we lost-we have been doing this for years and years and each is special--blythe and i have always said-- they think we are their pets sometimes--------very sorry for your loss -i know its like a family member--our cans of ashes from past dogs we like to think are cans of memories
ReplyDeleteI confess... I keep coming back to this thread to have a good cry. I keep seeing more things that evoke memories... not always good ones... but not necessarily bad ones either.
ReplyDeleteSouth Florida... and b'god... County Tyrone... where I met several young Tommies in Omagh who were killed the next day by a truck bomb... and Donegal Town- where the Orangemen from Derry crossed the line and murdered a man in his sleep... The Troubles.
And "Clifford the Big Red Dog," something in all of us that is strong and noble and gentle. It's a "happy" kind of sadness... that made no sense until I learned how the Irish did it. The metaphysical... something the disciplined mind struggles to shake... but things unseen won't let go.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAYR2oqS0HI
A love of my life I lost to the wicked scene in South Florida over 30 years ago.
Ah the divil gang wi ye. I'm gonna have another good cry.
Michael - I too had a similar experience, although with a lover. We were very close and she stayed with me in my dreamstate for another year after she had passed to the other side. Then she said it was time for her to go. I had learned my lesson.
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Tough talk, tough logo, tough image.
Big fookin' softy on the inside.
I hear ya about Co Tyrone, the Tommies, Omagh and all that.
I once met a British soldier at Heathrow Airport. We were both stuck there overnight, as both our flights were late.
We sat and talked all night. About fishing, nature and the fact that if we were both in Ireland that we, two decent men would be trying to kill each other.
That event, amongst others, left it's imprint on me. I have no doubt as to the sacred and it's gentle, guiding influence on us, here on this small globe.
Patrick, I am with you. Since that day, I have had very little true fear. I know, I KNOW the Creator is real and it is not what Father Touchy-McFeelim was pimping to us.
So Waldo, go have a good cry. Do it for those of us who are unable.
Waldo, I must confess... that for someone who bare's the moniker of the grim reaper, you certainly do have a soft spot in your heart! Comeon man, upgrade your public image :) Be yourself. I'd like to see everyone here with a real mugshot. The year doesn't matter. It's who you are that counts. You're not a skull, but a real thinker.
ReplyDeleteYo Michael! I went to catholic parochial grammar school, so I know the rap. We always made jokes about the gay priests and lesbian nuns. (Can't get nun!) I even had my "close encounters" with the robed (sic) but was smart enough to shy away. Aside from that, soldiers on opposite sides of the fence have often times been manly enough to recognize they were both victims of circumstances. I just watched the movie "to end all wars." We're all prisoners of the global elite. The time has come to break the chains.
ReplyDeleteEasy to do.
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